Joey

Another Year Later...

2011-03-14T03:56:00.001+08:00

I had been to college and out. I made it through a whole year. Did not mean I dropped out. My course had just ended, now having a break from study, awaiting for results. In any case, I do hope I pass and graduate. Sweat back to those who sweat me.

Remember, life should be enjoyed and for that we need to eat. Not too little of it too. Tell me how else would we have the energy to do anything? Say, to work the muscles from the shoulder to the wrist, or to stand? A game of badminton would tire you out easily in less than half of a session. You would feel like falling to the ground and lying motionless there. But, you do not want to faint! No! Hell no, you fight it! There is no other way than to retreat from the ~~battlefield~~ court, and to catch your breath by gulping in water and by having a fan blowing in your face. The mind works hard for a way to gain homeostasis and be refreshed, in which it needs oxygen. So, oxygen is required to think how to achieve oxygen debt. I don't know how that works. It's so confusing. Anyway, you want that oxygen to metabolize lactic acid, to replenish ATP and glycogen, and so on. In summation, you need air, or maybe food is what you need. Then, the mind would not trick you into wanting air.

Live to eat! I'm getting out of track there, going all over the place. Ha! You think I'm relaying what I've learnt from my study in college. *Leaves you wondering.*

Can it be that the headache I'm having now is meddling with my mind, or killing it slowly? Gotta go now. Perhaps I have yet to achieve oxygen debt. Still, could be the aftermath of anxiety over finals. The consequence of facing the screen every day?

I need to go into the unconscious mind - stage four of sleep.

Coming Right Up!

2010-03-27T20:17:00.001+08:00

Yo. If you still haven't found out about it, we're having Earth Hour tonight on earth.

In Anticipation

2010-03-14T23:14:00.002+08:00

March 11, 2010

With hearts thumping loudly in our own chests and bulging eyes ready to pop out of our heads (in waiting for the teachers to call our names to be handed the results), our minds are filled with giddyness. Some of us eager. Some of us desperate. Some of us (me) stricken with nervous breakdowns not wanting the results to be released, wishing the slips would be left alone.
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The inspiring rushes have gone. I don't feel like continuing it.

Single-Tasking Day

2010-02-22T18:52:00.001+08:00

It is today (I think).

Multi-tasking is ineffective, and may cause brain damage! I do it most of the time without having much thought about it, which it probably shows why I lack concentration.

Multi-Tasking = Being Less Mindful
Single-Tasking = Being More Mindful

I have now decided to perform less multi-tasking. I desire to embrace the moment and to live in it. That way, hopefully, i will be more focus and on the way to becoming more mindful.

I am going to close the five sites I have opened in my browser.

In joy,
Jo

Jan Joanne

2010-01-21T18:08:00.003+08:00

It's my birthday today. Did you know?

"Whatever with the past has gone, The best is always yet to come." - Lucy Larcom

I expect a quiet one this year, not knowing why, perhaps because I feel tired from doing no good for a long time now. Too long. I won't disgrace myself much further here. I've no pictures up because I haven't been outdoors.

But, here's a couple.

Lesson of the day : What is the opposite of IN?

Big clown.

“Well, birthdays are merely symbolic of how another year has gone by and how little we've grown. No matter how desperate we are that someday a better self will emerge, with each flicker of the candles on the cake, we know it's not to be, that for the rest of our sad, wretched pathetic lives, this is who we are to the bitter end. Inevitably, irrevocably; happy birthday? No such thing.” - Jerry Seinfeld

I Lost My Senses

2010-01-19T21:36:00.001+08:00

Where oh where are my senses?
My perception is off dropping all of my defenses
Against being clear-headed and gaining some sagacity
I am inflated full of vanity

January 19 is the 19th day of the year in the Gregorian calendar.

At least, I didn't lose my sense of the date today, after rechecking it.

New Year's Eve

2010-01-04T18:41:00.009+08:00

This is a better New Year's Eve post. That's why I titled this post instead of the previous one.

Roads in some parts of the city were closed. You can see people walking everywhere.

We were waiting for countdown at a crossjunction.

A balloon freed into the sky. I was watching it float happily up until it looked like a tiny dot in the dark sky. Then I noticed a couple nearby also had their heads up. Watching people watching the world is my favourite thing to do.

Can you spot it?

People were spraying artificial snow on each other the whole night. Those who weren't tried to get out of the way hoping to stay clean. A couple of times they turned it into a massive fight.

After the countdown and fireworks ended well past midnight, people were still partying out on the roads.

I woke up this morning and said to myself, "Oh! Today's the first day of school. What am I doing in bed still?"

Nah. I've taken my SPM examination last year. I'm done with secondary school.

Then I thought, "Today's the day NS starts for first batch."

Nah. I got a 'minta maaf'. Remember?

I'm free to go back to sleep.

Welcome 2010.
Love,
Jo

2010-01-04T16:43:00.002+08:00

On the night of New Year's Eve, I was walking around the city of Kuala Lumpur (KL) with my family. I may not have known it myself but I sometimes have a childish fantasy that people in general are virtuous, maybe even a tiny bit. What someone has done for me to live in sorrow proves me to be wrong.

As I stepped out one of the malls in the busy city and joined the hoo-ha outside getting ready to welcome the new year just a few hours away, I was temporarily separated from my family, lost amid the crowd. I thought I felt someone opening the zip of my bag which I carry behind me but I wasn't sure. I slowly turned my head around, my hand reaching to confirm my thought. Lo and behold, it was open. I gave a quick check to the contents of the bag and found the camera to be missing. At first, I didn't believe it, or I didn't want to believe it. I double-checked but it was of no use. The cam is beyond doubt gone. No way I would ever get it back to my possesion.

My heart was cussing. After some time, I cooled down feeling an iota of pity for the pathetic dude (or could be a woman. I think a she was behind me at the time I was sandwiched between strangers.) I pity him for lacking love for another being by making a choice to take away a person's belonging which happens to be a favourite and also costly. It may not worth much to some of you but it is to us poorly financed. Most especially to my mum being the biggest worrier in the family. She was full of ifs, if only I had carried my bag in front of me, if my brother had been walking right behind me, if I had handed the cam to my dad to hold earlier. My dad is the opposite of my mum. He had just accepted the situation as it had happened because it was knowingly well we could not do anything about it and could not deny the fact that what had happened had already happened. We should just let it go.

So, now I can only take photographs using my camera phone.

I Am Refreshed

2009-12-30T16:29:00.002+08:00

What a bummer. I have been wanting to blog since days but now that I finally get to it, I lost all inspiration and ideas to spit out here.

Perhaps I shall tell about the freshness I'm in to right now. Check out Freshness Factor Five Thousand.

I won't elaborate more. Imma get myself more freshness.

Happy New Year's Eve's Eve.

1 Year Later...

2009-12-12T20:33:00.002+08:00

Today is the 12th of December, 2009.

It's been exactly one year since my last post in this blog that I've abandoned on purpose as I know I won't have the time and convinience to blog for the year. Oh scratch that. I've just checked and it's actually another week to go to be one year. Haha.

Anyway, I don't really have anything else to tell. I just wanted to tell one thing.

Today is the 12th of December, 2009.

I Watched This Fantastic Movie The Other Day That I Watched Once Last Time on The TV and Have Wanted to Watch It Again But Couldn't until I Did!

2008-12-19T23:25:00.007+08:00

Although I've forgotten about the movie, but I remember I liked it and wanted to watch it again. I'm glad I have the DVD now!

Was Kinda Avoiding, and Still

2008-12-19T21:52:00.002+08:00

I'm so sorry, guys. My mind was wrong. My thinking was wrong.
I'll try not to do that again.

A couple of times when I was chatting in msn this month the connection got lost, just so you know.

Oh, by the way, I know you're not aware, but I didn't say I don't hate you, although you might not know who you are whom I mean.

Sandra

2008-12-04T14:08:00.002+08:00

Why I Didn't Update

2008-11-27T22:32:00.003+08:00

I'm feeling crappy. I feel crappy everytime I online for some certain reasons that you don't even bother to know and I'm just stating it here to fulfil my satisfaction.

That's one reason.

I got nothing interesting to blog about. ~~(Not that anyone care, I know that for a fact.)~~ Sorry, that was my crappiness.

That's another reason.

I feel crappy again thinking about some stuff.

That's another reason.

I got envy in me.

That's another reason.

I can't do anything to make myself feel uncrappy so I'm crappy again.

That's another reason.

Okay, enough of it here.

Candid Shots of 4 Bestari Class Party

2008-11-23T00:29:00.004+08:00

12-18 November 2008

2008-11-18T21:22:00.003+08:00

Wednesday, 12 November 2008
Class party at Court 10 from 7.00 till 11.00p.m. Went home wet.

Thursday, 13 November 2008
Skipped school. Really no reason to go anyway. School's ending.
That night, slept at around 2.45a.m.

Friday, 14 November 2008
Woke up at 6.30a.m. to go to school. What a good girl I am.
Nah. Thought I had some stuff I had to do, but actually, was pretty useless.
School was practically empty. There were only two classes all the students put together.
Got some textbooks for next year.
Spent the day with alia and syahirah.
Think around 10 something, we sneaked out of school. No, we didn't do that. We marched right out of school. Not that anyone cared anyway. We walked to yeeing's house, which was pretty far. We reached there and she just woke up (Haha). Found out the reason she didn't online (Yeah. No way she wouldn't online.) Went out for breakfast, then walked back to her house again. Walked back to school at around the time school ended and got a ride back home.
Did a lot of walking that day.
Slept at 1.30a.m. that night.

Saturday, 15 November 2008
Friends.
3.15a.m., slept.

Sunday, 16 November 2008
Missed Friends. ='(

Monday, 17 November 2008
Got Sandra to be my model.
2.00a.m., should be asleep. But, no, I wasn't.

Tuesday, 18 November 2008
Still got people saying they're bored to me.
They're hungry too, as usual.
=)

Boring Facts

2008-11-11T18:06:00.004+08:00

I didn't plan to put in a new post today. But, I've just type out some stuff to post in my space, instead, and I'm still having trouble to do so for the second time. Dang. So much for service to be temporarily unavailable and asking me to try again later. It's been days since I last tried and failed. I try again today and I fail again. You could've told me earlier so I wouldn't waste my time typing out all that, even though it's not much. Now that I've wasted my time, I'm just gonna go ahead and post it here. The original title is as titled above. The original entry is as below.

If you're bored now, well... I'm boreder than you.
I tried to post an entry the other day but didn't succeed.
It is especially boring today (even though I'm having some peace).
Something's wrong with the Internet Explorer so I can't do much on the internet thus making it extra boringer. (I suspect it is spoiled by my brother when he played some sort of game in the comp. Dang.)
The comp is lagging 'cause I'm trying to listen to some music on Windows Media Player, so I'm taking extra time with this.
I just asked a 2-year-old baby sitting behind me to say something and she sang "Low" for me. Yes, the song by Flo Rida ft. T-Pain. She starts with the humming in the beginning then she goes 'jean jeans... boots... fur...' (she says 'pur' instead) and then she goes 'low low low low...'
It's 6p.m. already.

Oh my goodness. Somebody was shouting outside. I think a mother was scolding and beating a child. I might be wrong but it sounded like it, and it sounded serious.

Okay, I'm off.

My Disorder

2008-11-10T23:31:00.002+08:00

I've been to this Create Post page for a few times already for the past hour and I still could not think of anything funny/cool/smart things to blog about. Man, I really suck at this. I have this dumb obsession of wanting everything to be right, like some kind of OCD? I won't say the examples here, or I might scare away the visitors I have to my blog. I may sound like a sick weirdo. No wait, I already sound like one.

Oh my gosh.

I remember having this feeling.

This is when I get paranoid, have really low self-confidence, write out depressing sentences, and suck at everything I'm doing.

I know you don't get me. Haha.

School on Monday, Today

2008-11-10T19:15:00.002+08:00

Today when I arrived in school, it was freakishly scary 'cause the school compound was really quiet, as if no one was in school. Then as I walked nearer to the assembly ground, I saw all the students already lined up by their classes. I was late to school again as usual. Haha. So, thank God, there were some students. There were only about a quarter or less than that of morning session students today, I'd estimate.

Anyway, I forgot the reason why I went to school today. But, it's okay, like whatever, 'cause I had went and am already back. Oh, by the way, I came back home earlier today. Haha. Like stupid whatever...

And now, I'm gonna have my dinner soon, so I better stop this before I'm late for dinner. I'm actually hungry already. O_O

Awww... I wanted to write a great story. I failed, again. But, anyway, like, whatever.

Cheers.

Beautiful... and L-A-M-E Lame

2008-11-09T19:37:00.004+08:00

The above is a beautiful picture of nabila, alia and elly.
Check out their beautiful smiles and lovely dresses.
It was taken at shikin's open house by nabila's cam.
I just found this in my comp.

Hahahahahahahahahaha.

I'm so pathetic. I got nothing else to blog about.

I better stop before I type out anymore pathetic stuff.

I'm so lame. Hahahahaha.
I'm the best at being lame. Hahaha.
You can't be lamer than me. Ha.

I know, it's not funny at all.

My back seriously needs a massage.
T_T
Swt.

Tagged by Yeeing

2008-11-08T18:34:00.005+08:00

Do you think you'll be in a relationship 3 months from now?
I hope so. Alia, stay here okay.

Are you typically a jealous person?
Yes.

Are you a cuddler?
Sometimes.

Something happen today that made you angry?
Not quite really.

What were you doing before this survey?
Chatting in msn.

Where were you at 3:02 AM this morning?
I don't remember. In bed sleeping, I guess.

Marriage in your future?
...

How has this past week been for you?
Crazy. Fun. Bad. Boring.
You don't really wanna know.

Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
Yeah, most of the time.

Is there a reason for your MySpace song(s)?
No song, but I'd say yes.

Do you hate the last guy you were talking to?
... No.

Have you ever seen your best friend cry?
Yeah babe.

Who was the last person to call you babe/baby?
No one. No, I don't remember. I don't know. Alia?

What time did you wake up this morning?
Like I know. Okay, 9.50a.m., I think. Shut up.

Do you get along better with guys or girls?
Girls. Depends also.

Something you really want right now?
I wanted yummy food. Now, I want ... world peace, and extinction of starvation.

Are you currently looking forward to anything?
Not really.

Have you ever wished for something and it came true?
I think so.

Do you regret anything about your past?
Yeah. I'm learning not to. But, yeah, I do.

Do you find it in your heart to forgive?
Definitely.

Are you there for your friends?
Are my friends there for me?

Do you think you're old?
Yes.

What is on your mind?
...

What do you currently hear right now?
...

When a friend walks out of your life, do you go after them or let them go?
Depends.

Does anyone hate you?
I hope not.

Does the person you like, like you back?
...

Who was the last person you sat next to?
Can't remember. Not gonna crack my head thinking.

Who was the last guy you talked to in person?
Father is a father. Brother is a brother. Caden is a small kid. So, guy-KhengYu.

How late did you stay up last night, and why?
Not sure, but to listen to music, of course. Hahaha.

Whose bed besides your own did you sleep in last?
My ex-husband's. Haha.

10 persons to tag.
...

This Dang Day

2008-11-06T18:49:00.002+08:00

The very day after my ever-so-fun final term exam turned out to be bad and boring and bad. So here goes nothing more.

I give my love to all.

'Cool' Weather / Graduation Day

2008-10-31T20:51:00.004+08:00

It was really cool today. In fact, cooler than yesterday and the day before... Everyone was really having fun in school for the Form 5s graduation. Well, so, we don't have to sit for exams today.
Anyway, I went to school just because I wanted to get my Bio and Chem work done to be passed up. And, so, a few friends and I did our work. We moved from the assembly ground to the canteen as there has tables. And, you know, the process of getting it done...

No! I can't stand it! That was so not true and you guys knew that!
The weather was unsurprisingly so freaking HOT as in a very high degree of temperature. Everyone was sweating like mad cows, gasping in deeply for air like we're starving of oxygen lacking in the atmosphere and longing hard for a cool breeze which disappointingly never came. (At least, I was.) My friends were in a bad mood, I know. So bad they made me feel bad though I was trying hard not to be. All I wanted was to be home. Then, I ended up home later than 12.30p.m., though I think we're allowed to go home much earlier than that as Form 5s were partying... Blah whatever... like blablabla. (Pardon me.) Blablabla whatever.
If you think the weather isn't very hot and the temperature is normal, give yourself a smack.

So I went to KLCC...

2008-10-31T20:32:00.002+08:00

Okay so I went there to watch a movie.

So, it was like this:
Yeah... Haha...
Hmm... Haha... Yeah...
Err... Hmm... Yeah...
Hmm... Hmmm...
Haha... Sweat...
Sweat... Sweat... Haha...
Yeah right haha...

I'm really sorry I didn't invite some of you guys.

Short Update

2008-10-20T18:18:00.003+08:00

So, final term exam started last Thursday. I know it's gruelling, but it's also fun watching them, the class I mean. Their antics, man, I can admire the nature of people. I spend quite a lot of time during exam just watching the people in my class, mostly because I sit at the back of the class so I can see practically everyone, and also because I don't know how to answer the questions. That's how I spend my time in exam and I have entertainment just watching khengyu's antic. I mean, you guys, look at him, and tell me am I not right.

Okay. Enough of stupid rubbish. Please take note that sometimes I don't realise what I'm mumbling about.

Anyway, I went to alia's open house last Saturday. There was a lot of people at her house. Man I've not had so much fun in a long time! I really feel like 'lepak'-ing again. Okay. Basically, I did nothing really. I was just hanging around near them guys and that's fine enough, I mean fun enough, fine enough, whatever.
I'd like to cancel the whole paragraph.
Okay, since I don't know how to do it, I'll leave it.
Check out yeeing's version of alia's open house.

Sun Up For 1.5 Days?

2008-10-12T01:46:00.002+08:00

Coming October 17, 2008 the sun will rise continuously for 36 hrs (1.5 days). During this time the US countries will be dark for 1.5 days. It will convert 3 days into 2 big days. It will happen once in 2400 yrs. We're very lucky to see this.

How about that. We're gonna have daylight for 1.5 days straight. Okay I don't know if it's true or not. Whaddya think?

bleh

2008-10-10T17:09:00.002+08:00

My eyesight is deteriorating from bad to worse. Oh no... I've been sitting in front of the monitor for almost the whole afternoon. So much for studying hard for exam.

Anyway, I wanted to post a story about a green bean fight in class yesterday, but now I feel kinda lazy, you know, and the story seems like out-dated already. It was good laugh though.....

I just managed to add a cbox in my blog (just like you ask for, yeeing. but I know you won't use it much. -.-), after failing to do so last night. Oh yeah, now I remember I gotta link her. Aih, yeeing, why always ask me to link you. I read your blog, you know, but do you read mine? -.-
Bleh.....

Omg I'm chatting with a person in msn who thinks I'm rude to her wtf but she is the one being rude to me wtf. And she is calling me names now. Wtf. She made me waste my time and now I don't have mood to blog already.

Why I Shouldn't Go to School Today

2008-10-06T18:33:00.002+08:00

I shouldn't complain so much. But basically, all the typical reasons.

So, see ya.

I Did Folio Work in a Fast Food Restaurant

2008-10-05T23:18:00.002+08:00

Before that I was watching my tv show at home (Okay, you guys?). I was late, and I'm sorry, but if I had went earlier I would've disturb yeeing's and khengyu's time together, so I'm not sorry. Plus, Jevan was also late, so he's also wrong. Haha... =P

I didn't talk much 'cause I felt like somewhat tired to talk and just wanted to listen to music at the time. So, I concentrated on my moral folio work. I still don't understand why they can't turn on the music in the restaurant without me having to strain my ears.

Btw, this blog is created on October 1 2008.
Just wanna mention that. For nothing, I know.

First Post

2008-10-03T20:38:00.002+08:00

I had a blog in blogspot once. I don't know what happened to it, though. Maybe I deleted it. I don't know. Haha... Who cares? It's lost, forgotten. Most probably dead.

Now, say hello to my newly created blog. This is gonna be more special. Why? 'Cause it's got this simple layout with the fonts and colours and all edited by me. Okay I know that it's nothing great. Just giving myself a lil credit for the work I've done and for the time I've taken.

But, I should mention, the layout is temporary, and so is the title "Joey". I care about these little things too, you know, 'cause I'm very picky. So, please accept me for the way I am.

Nah, I think they're gonna stick around for some time.